12
May

Ahhh!

What a great weekend!

Mr. Man and I made a great escape to a Car Show in Wichita Falls, then booked it to OKC to meet Mom and Brother and SisM and TODDLER!   It was a twist on Mother’s Day this year, what with it being the first one without Granny.  Though we did get a cosmic message or two from her.  First, while at Bricktown (downtown OKC) we were buying tickets for the water taxi at the Red Dirt Emporium, we came across some of Aunt Chick’s cookie cutters, the same kind Granny used for over 60 years to make some of her special holiday cookies.  And we learned that store is the only retailer in OKC to carry them.  Hmmm?  And as we walked away from the water taxi dock after our ride, a tall, perfect daisy greeted us as we approached the flowerbed near the steps leading to the street. Daisies were her favorite flower.

All in all, a great, if whirlwind, weekend.  Brother and SisM seem to be doing well.  And Toddler is fabulous, as always.  She called (via Grandma) while were were still in Wichita Falls and asked if we were going to be at her house in 5 minutes.  Precious.  And while we were saying good-bye, explaining we had to drive back to Amarillo, she asked if she could go with us.  AWWW! We would have, in a split second, if we’d been able to arrange our work and class schedules ahead of time!    Toddler is getting to the age where she is getting a sense of time, figuring that all out, and about living in different cities.  That she looks forward to seeing us is neat.  As usual, we were all charmed by her antics. 

Bricktown is really neat.  It’s the entertainment district of OKC, where there are clubs, restaurants, a baseball stadium and a man-made waterway with mosaics, shops and the like  on its banks, similar to the Riverwalk in San Antonio.  We ate at Earl’s Rib Palace,  a place with DELICIOUS barbeque, fit for a king.  No, really.  Earl, a native of Eastern Oklahoma, used to be Elvis’s chef, and now, as his bio says, Earl’s recipies also live on as a part of history, even though he passed about a year after the King of Rock and Roll. YUM!

OKC is also the headquarters for the Sonic corporation. See about how they got their start in Oklahoma here.  It’s pretty interesting.  Still,  I didn’t get my Sonic Diet Coke fix this weekend until LATE Sunday afternoon. grumble grumble…

We stayed later than we should have Sunday, not leaving until 10:30, and gertting home until nearly 3:00 a.m. YAWN. Luckily, I was off work today, and I was totally lazy.  TOTALLY. 

Like I have time for that?

The guilt-ish-ness sets in…..

08
May

Awesome!

Thanks, Groovy!

28
Apr

Nostalgia

I’d forgotten Jell-O. 

How could I, one might wonder, with all those catchy commercials and Bill Cosby’s enthusiastic endorsements?  Well, I’m not sure…I don’t know when I started turning my nose up at the wiggly-jiggly wonder.  I never abandoned the pudding, Heaven forbid!  But the gelatin, I could take it or leave it, and I left it.

We’re still going through Granny’s possessions.  This week, while unpacking another box rescued from storage, I found Granny’s Jello-O dish.  It’s not some kind of “official” Jell-O dish, but the one I remember her always pouring her Jell-0 into.  Usually cherry, with mixed fruit.  It’s rectangular, thick glass, ribbed all the way around with a similar lid sporting raised leaves.  Something I hadn’t thought about in years, but when I saw it the rush of memory came back to me. Along with the warm, fuzzy feelings you might expect.

So, I cleaned it up, and made some Jell-O, lemon-flavored, that I brought home from her pantry at her house across town.  With marshmallows instead of fruit. There I was in my kitchen, that used to be Granny’s kitchen, scooping Jell-O out of the dish Granny used to scoop Jell-O from.  It was some of the best Jell-O I’ve ever had.

I’m having a lot of moments like these, as is the rest of my family.   Something that brings sweet memories to our mind, and how lucky are we we have them to relive. Today, Mom and I brunched at I-HOP, and a group of elderly people, assisted by canes and a bit unsteady in spite of it, passed by on the way to their table.

“I know,” Mom said, “I miss her too.”

I hadn’t realized I had a sad look on my face.  But Mom has always been able to read me like a book.

Living in the house Granny and Papa did for so long, the house where Uncle B and Mom grew up, the house where they entertained people from Church and unofficially fostered so many children, I am blessed.  We want to give that to Toddler, and any children we might have.

I must get to work to get ready for the Home Study. I can’t bear the thought of my Granny’s house, now ours (we bought it after she remarried several years ago), not measuring up in any way. I don’t like putting myself up for possible rejection, I realized today. 

Not an earth-shattering realization, I mean who loves rejection anyway?  Putting your whole life up for judgement, everything that is you is out there, waiting for someone else’s stamp of approval.

Do you think that’s why I’ve been such a major avoider of writing lately?  I’ve lost sight of the love of story-telling by letting all those rejection letters clutter my head?  It’s not even that that they are mere rejection letters, I can’t even get past the standard form rejection letter. How sad that a more detailed rejection letter might make me happy. And so totally unrealistic that agents and editors have that kind of time.  But I can’t let this hang-up get in the way of my writing much longer.  

I’ve always been such a person in need of approval from others.  One of the weaknesses I can’t abide in myself.  And I’ve always been comfortable with my successes in life.  The feeling I might not succeed with something that has been one of my dreams forever eats at me until I am paralyzed into inaction.

Cue the violins.

This foster/adopt thing, though…I can’t let myself chicken out for fear of rejection.  I haven’t even thought about it.  This dream is bigger than me, it’s Mr. Man’s dream, too.  We want a family, always have.  And that takes persistance and dedication, as does anything in life that is worthwhile.

 

26
Apr

Domingo Delicioso #37

Well, How y’all doin’? Things around here have been busy, as usual lately.  Mr. Man and I have two weeks of foster/adopt classes under our belt.  Eight more to go.  I haven’t blogged about it as much as I thought I would…the past couple of classes have mainly been putting our toes into the water, getting introduced to the new world we are entering.  We have so much to learn, so much to do.  But I have to tell you, I am so proud of Mr. Man.  He is thriving in these classes.  He, usually so reserved, even made a presentation of sorts.  SO proud. 

There’s a long list of things we need to do.  Background checks, health checks, home studies, health inspection, fire inspection, baby-proofing…just off the top of my head.  And this is on top of the other getting-the-house-in-order thing I’m so whacked out about already.

I was so nervous the week before, and on top of PMS, I was eating everything I could get my hands on.  Ugh.  I can get back on the right track, though. The number on the scale is feedback, not failure, right? Anyway, I tend to pop off and make what I think are funny remarks when I’m nervous, but not everyone thinks they’re funny.  The first night was one of those nights.  Ugh.  At the end of class,  I told the developer I am really serious about this, I was just nervous about being approved.  She said there was no reason to be nervous, after all, I hadn’t ever KILLED anyone, right?

Um,  no.

So, we should be fine, she assured me. 

I’m sure Mr. Man was rolling his eyes behind my back. But he should be used to this by now. :)

The thing I keep thinking about is how I was so nervous before I had my first (and only, so far) surgery, and after it was done, though I was sore, I survived and it wasn’t something I should have been so scared about after all. 

I’m so glad Mr. Man and I are in this together.

So, what have y’all been up to this week?

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I spent a little time cursing Renae under my breath and grumbling to my husband “this piece of x!$% has possibly the worst dialogue I’ve ever read and very little punctuation and it won the Pulitzer! And the plot is completely depressing and disgusting!”

I like the fact you are hitting the blog again, Jenny!  You’ve never steered me wrong on a book yet, and the fact that in the end, you were really enthisiastic about this one makes me curious.  I also haven’t read the one you recommended this week!

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It’s humbling to accept a gift like that, with no way to return it.

Wow, Britta, what a heartwarming story.  And you’re right, it is odd that the acts of generosity are the ones that disarm us.  BTW– I try to comment on your blog from time to time, but for some reason, I don’t seem to be able to.  But rest assured, I read it!  Miss you . . .

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Alright, you with me?  Let’s start this party right.  I know I, for one, have been a bottom-feeder for the last few months.  A scavenger sitting in the mud and spitting out rocks on the bottom of the fishtank, flipping through my TIVO and watching umpteenth re-runs, models modeling, mensa members losing to fifth graders, chefs making 20-course meals out of garbanzo beans, and stars doing everything from dancing to rehab to showing us their “other talents.” 

Glad y’all are back, Zoanne!

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…your eight year-old looks around disgustedly and queries, “Are you EVER going to clean this floor?!”

Oh, I know, Groovy, I KNOW.  *SIGH* I can  also sympathize with your bout of Spring Fever, though I am not NEARLY as productive.

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But wait! There’s more! I grabbed the towel and… and… it grabbed me back! Then it hissed at me just before it sunk it’s nasty teeth into my hand.

Yowza, Ms. Karen!

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  Where is this all going to end?

That’s a  very good question, Selma.

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I think I hear some little crackly pecking…

Aw!  What a cute little pecker, Suz!  Lucky, indeed! ;)

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No.  That word isn’t “definition”.  It’s “De Finition”  i.e. FINISHED (in French).  

Again, WONDERFUL, Diva A!  You guys, when this gal is published, you are in for a treat!

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Well, I had another birthday this week. Non-eventful, with the usual harrassment by my younger brother and younger husband than I am old. Mid-forties my be considered old by some people, but I can assure you I am very immature for my age…But, the appearance of another birthday made me realize that I am running out of the “somedays” I refer to when I think about accomplishing my dreams.

Happy belated, Duchess! I feel the same way you do, on all counts. 

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I’ve never really thought much about formulating a “perfect” pitch, I just throw out what I know about the story. I’ve been lucky at times to flag down interest in my work, but no sale. So I guess it’s time to GET SERIOUS about learning things now to prepare for the time I will be “perfectly pitching” the finished MA thesis manuscript.

Another Castleite re-examining the get serious angle.  I’m so proud of you, MegMorrison!

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I read somewhere once that you know you’ve found your calling when the activity makes you lose all track of time.

I KNEW it!  Sleep!  SLEEP is my calling!  No, wait, time-wasting on the ‘Net… No, INDECISION!  That’s my calling! You are so COOL, Jaye!

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Hehehe…me in the morning! (Sorry, Groovy!)

http://myspacetv.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=30932409

Sometimes, though it’s more like this:

http://myspacetv.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=32970188

24
Apr

Double Ack!

They could have at least PhotoShopped out my double chin!

http://www.amarillo.com/stories/042408/new_10140886.shtml




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